Sweet- HorrorScope

You are able to feel your power growing today, but you must be careful how you use it. It's easy to mistake anger for strength, yet if your passion is motivated by negativity, you won't be able to sustain it. Fortunately, you can tap into a higher source of energy by transcending personal preferences and connecting with a more universal vision. Concentrating on the big picture now ultimately enables you to express yourself with even greater integrity.

I Can't Do It

I heart Blogger.

It's so personal + secret, everytime I log in I feel like I'm entering Jung's Cavern...

About to Commit an Act of Betrayal

I'm leaving Blogger for Word.press.

I know, I know- You'll miss me, you'll be sad to see me go...
http://www.carrieannseymour.wordpress.com

L8ter.

The Rules of the Queen

I was reading a gorgeous book to my little one last night about a young princess traveling out of her homeland to become the Queen. Marrying, of course...
In her preparations she had to say goodbye to all the things she knew and loved, including her parents.

My daughter looked at me and said, "It's sad that she's leaving all her princess things behind, but I guess that's what you have to do to learn the new rules. The rules of the Queen."

And I looked into her beautiful little moon-face and said, "Yes, Sweetheart, every princess must learn the new rules..." and I tried not to cry at the realization tthe the younger generation is much quicker, smarter, and wiser than I'll ever hope to be.

I'm STILL trying to learn the rules of the Queen!

AHHa! Epiphany...

I figured out how to umbrella all of my interests and goals into one beautifully brilliant exhibition online and off.

The 7Th Sister's HooDooShack + BlackMagic Emporium.

My continuing research into the socio-anthropological study of African/American Folklore + Mystical traditions. My emerging tendencies to folk and outsider art made stronger by my background in art history and studio art. My unceasing desire to move to and open a gallery in Galena, IL. My undying belief + faith in Magic + Dreams coming true. My fascination with Photoshop and computer literacy. My love of books + a growing desire to publish chapbooks + catalogues. My love + creation of music + audio art...

The list continues...

It is definitely a life project!

Happiness.

Hmf...

Where's my G-dDam F***ing sense of relief?!?!

Maybe I didn't let go of enough...

Maybe I'm supposed to let go of the fairytale life dream where my kids forgive me, I become successful, people understand and laugh at my jokes or hold me through the struggles, I am accepted where I live...

Maybe I'm not as talented as I once believed? Not as beautiful or thin as I once was... Maybe I'm not crazy at all, Maybe maybe may be...

The cold snap has snapped me. I feel brittle inside. I feel corded off from some sort of reality I'm just not privy to...The hands are up and pushing. I want to go. Home. Big Hill Country. Mighty River. Silence and starry nights. Camp fires and toasted marshmallows.

The longing + the ache make me wonder what the hell else was I ever looking for and why the hell has it taken me so long to remember?

I Like This One

Dear Carrie.Ann,
Here is your horoscope for
Friday, October 9:
Today is all about letting go -- and you can see that it's for the best, even if you resist superficially. You should feel a sense of release and relief that is quick and profound as you decide to move on.